Real Girl In The City

Have you ever been feeling really great and excited about something or anything and then someone calls or comes into your office and before you know it you are in the worst mood imaginable?  Welcome to my day. My goals were simple today: get up, get dresses, bake cookies for my trip, go pick up luggage, send some emails, write my blog for today, watch the Jazz/Lakers game and a few other season finales, and go to bed.  I was in a great mood because there are only 4 more days till my trip and I love to bake and then bam a conversation that knocked me off my cloud 3 (cloud 9 is just for love) and threw a crook right in the middle of my great mood.  But do you know the most frustrating part of the whole thing is that I let someone else’s mood and statements rain on my parade.

I thought that I was finally over that.  It’s funny how living away from your family can lull you into a false sense of security.  Since I have been back home I have learned that some of my issues that I thought were complete resolved are not even close.  Plus it seems like I have picked up new issues along the way.  What is that? 

I am really good at trying to let my mood be my mood and other people’s moods get to stay there own.  I work hard at it, but it seems like there are a few people that can always rub a bad mood right on me.  Sometimes it’s not even a bad mood it just seems like they suck all of my energy right out and what is sad some of them don’t even have to be around me to do it.  A call or just the idea of what they are going to say and I’m gone.  Why is that?  I wish I knew but it is truly annoying.  I know sometimes things are said not to make me feel bad or push my mood to the dark side of the force but why can’t people follow that one simple rule that every parent tells their child, “If you can’t say anything nice; don’t say anything at all”.  We seem to forget that every single time or do we?  Maybe these people think that they are saying something nice.  Maybe they think they are being helpful.  I wish they knew they were wrong.

However, you also have those that I think know that they aren’t being nice or helpful they are just mad at the world or having their own issues and have decided to take everyone along for the ride.  I know someone like this and when you pull up to their house it like some days you can see the chalk outline all around it.  Everyone is pissy just because of one person’s bad mood, temper, and attitude.  This is like the nightmare of my life; to end up like that.  Yet there are days (like right now) that I find myself slowly slipping in that direction.  Like I know that I have so much still to do but all I want to do is just run away from home and do nothing else all day.  How old am I again?

I guess the point is that your mood should be just that; your mood.  Sharing great or exciting news with someone to make them feel better is one thing but when you know that all you are going to do is bring a person down maybe you need to re-evaluate.  Don’t let you mood decide someone else’s and everyone be strong.  I know mama said there would be days like this but at least make sure they are yours and not someone else’s.

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